I guess when writing a book, you would want the person reading it to feel what the person in the story is feeling. Especially when it is in first-person narrative. But I sometimes wish I wasn’t so emotional. I find myself right now feeling, well weird. And all because of a book I’m reading. Why is it affecting me so much? I feel like there’s a ball in my chest, that will only go away if I cry.
I feel what the character is feeling, I don’t care about my own life, because I’m feeling what they are.
It sounds so stupid, really it does. But right now I don’t care because I feel numb.
Ok, so I just finished reading it. And honestly, it was a good book, but nothing too special. And, no I don’t love Edward Cullen. I don’t understand why so many girls are lusting after someone who isn’t real? O.o
Now, I’m wondering how the movie will be. Very intereted in watching it now. I already know that once you’ve read the book, the movie usually dissapoints, so hopefully myexpectations won’t be too high…
Also, I bet after watching Twilight I’ll like Edward more… Just because, um, you know… Robert… 
(Actually tbh I don’t like the look of him in Twilight. I like him as a human LOL.)
So, for ages this Twilight thing has been going around. It was like all of a sudden it was everywhere. I had never even heard of it until the movie came out. After reading about it so much, I started to get an idea of what it was about.
And I can’t explain why, but I knew I wanted nothing to do with Twilight. Even the song ‘Decode’ by Paramore, I liked the song, but couldn’t watch the music video. I only ever watched it once.
I have a few theories about why I disliked Twilight for no apparent reason, and I guess I can share them (Even though it’s embarrassing!)
- Everyone liked it.
How would that make me not like it? Well, if you read my ‘About me’ you see that I say “I like being unique, and an individual, but at the same time, if I like something that everyone likes, I’m not going to stop liking it.”
So, I can’t really explain why, but it just seemed like every teenage girl was obsessed with Twilight, and it just seemed stupid. I don’t know, am I making sense?
- It was a love story.
Ok, so this was the main reason I think I didn’t want anything to do with Twilight. It’s a love story. I knew that they would be so in love and it would be full of passion, and the guy was absolutely gorgeous. And The reason I didn’t want to read/see that is because it makes me want that. How often do relationships like that happen? It’s like a fairytale. And I am one of those girls who wished and hoped that fairytale would happen to me. Guess what? It never has and I don’t think it ever will. So reading about it made me jealous, made me want something out of my reach, thus making me upset with my own relationships.
- Edward Cullen/Robert Pattinson.
In the movie Edward is portrayed by Robert Pattinson. So automatically reading the book that is the picture of him I have in my head. Right now every girl in the world has a crush on him. And, well he is gorgeous. But um, what am I trying to say here? I don’t even know. I guess I didn’t want to see the movie/read the book and get a crush on him either. I don’t want to long for something that isn’t real. I don’t want to get a stupid crush on Robert either just because of a character he plays.
- The Vampired don’t have vampire teeth and they sparkle.
I don’t know, it just seems weird. Vampires THAT SPARKLE??
But Twilight was everywhere, and I found this ball in my stomach everytime something to do with Twilight came up. Seriously, it was affecting me so much I felt it physically. I didn’t know what was wrong with me.
And also, Robert/Edward was in my dream so many times, it was so weird.
I must sound crazy…
I thought, the only way I was going to get over this was to either read the book, or see the movie. Even though, I didn’t want to. I decided to read the book because books are usually better than the movies, and my sister had the book.
Yesterday I read a little over half of the book. Number 2 on my list is kind of true so far. But I don’t understand what’s so great about Edward? Maybe I have to read to the end of the book to find out.
So, does this make sense, or do I sound pathetic and stupid?
